It’s pretty hard to find balance in life. You’re always either working too much or playing too hard. Either one is a bad thing for you in the long term.
Over the last 3 or so years I turned into a really serious person. I’d constantly be thinking about what there was to do, or what I had to do next(study especially). Because of this I didn’t get around to actually having fun much. It’s kind of weird because in the last couple of weeks I’ve finally had a chance to just sit back and let the universe run its course. And because of this I feel like I’m slowly turning back into the person that I used to be 3 years ago.
3 years ago I had a lot of friends. I was a fun person to be around. I never really thought very seriously about money, skills, what I owed to people(emotionally not financially) – I didn’t think much about the future at all. To put things more simply, I lived in the moment. And I have not doubt that 3 years ago I was a happier person in general because of that.
I turn 23 this year. I’m an adult now. I suppose society would dictate that I do think more seriously about my future, and welfare in general. But I think I’ve grown tired of a lifestyle that isn’t fun. Maybe this 3 year period was necessary, I can do a lot more than I could 3 years ago – and if I hadn’t changed at all there’s no way I’d be in Japan now or be able to speak any Japanese. So I guess in the end what’s most important is balance. When I had this conversation with someone that I admire a lot this is what they said to me:
“You’re better off being a negative person, and actually working towards something than being positive and just constantly telling yourself ‘things are going to work out’ without taking any action – but then again I don’t see why you can’t be positive and believe that things will work out while you work towards something”